Happy New Year All!
Hope everyone had a joyous holiday season. I personally am glad the holidays are over with. The commercialism of Christmas is overwhelming, plus I think the holidays center around people who have kids/family. Honestly, I tend to feel lonely during the holidays. I tried to get in the Christmas spirit but it didn’t work. Even with the Christmas decor I put up in my apartment and listening to the Temptations “Silent Night”, I got nothing.
Eh well…MOVING ON!
So no longer am I looking back. What’s the point? It’s done, gone, history. I’ve reflected and been thankful for what 2011 did for me. But now is the time to focus on the future. The objective here is: Staying FOCUSED on what I want for myself in 2012.
This is the year of DOING! I have some new things I want to incorporate into my blog this year. I can say there will be more photos and I want to post some videos. I don’t want give too many details about what type of videos just yet…You’ll just have to wait and see what’s ahead. I’m random, so I will still post whatever I’m feeling at the moment that is blog worthy.
***Disclaimer: I will try my best to update my blog as often as I can. Life happens and nothing is for certain. So forgive me in advance if there are weeks or months in between posts. There! I said it.***
What I am planning for my hair this year is protective styling. Protective styling will allow me to grow out my hair healthy, with little manipulation. I have what they call, “hand in hair disease” lol. This means I’m one of those girls who is always put her hands in her hair: twirling, pulling, etc. It’s a habit I do and sometimes I’m not even conscious of it. I’ve gotten a lot better about it lately, but at times my hand find it’s way to my hair when I’m idle or bored. *shrugs* Also with protective styles, I’ll experience less shedding and breakage, and I won’t have to detangle my hair (which can be a pain in the ass, as it gets longer). My hair is notoriously tangle prone ugh. So the plan is to start off with Senegalese twists. Hopefully hopefully I’m able to get that done this month. *fingers crossed* I can’t wait!
The job search continues. Looking for job in this market is a beast, but I’m remaining optimistic. At times I get frustrated but I cannot let frustrations set me back. I have to keep pushing. Again the operative word here is FOCUSED. My mind is open to working in a different industry, so who knows what I’ll be doing, I’m not limiting myself. Whatever I choose to do has to pay good enough for me to live comfortably and have benefits of course. I realize I may very well be taking a pay cut, and I’m okay with that. At the end of the day, I want to enjoy what I do and be happy. Being miserable in your job is not a good place to be. Trust me, I know.
This is one area of my life I am NOT going to put much focus on. Why? I’m emotionally exhausted. I suck at picking men. I have a knack of choosing Mr. Wrong’s. I’m always putting myself “out there” and letting a guy “in”. I have let my guard down too many times, and what do I get in return? Absolutely nothing. I’m tired of the lies, deceit, and bullshit that guys are dishing out. Pissing on me and telling me it’s rain. Save it. I am done dealing with men (no lesbo) and I cannot take anymore disappointment and hurt. Yes I still want to get married eventually, but lately, it’s been a challenge just getting to the freakin’ dating stage! I don’t have anymore time to spare worrying about if dude is for real or not, or waiting for him to make a move, OR worse… finding out he has a girlfriend!…(Don’t get me started. That’s another post). I don’t want to be a bitter bitch. But right now? I can’t do it.
With all that being said, I will focus on doing more things that make ME happy, work on establishing a career, and building a future for myself.
My wish for everyone is that they simply strive to be a better version of themselves. Change requires growth and growth requires change. You can’t have one without the other. My favorite saying (although cliche) is “you can’t keep doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.” So here’s to an amazing and fun 2012!
Peace & Love,